Au Revoir, Hello; Elegy? (A Personal Poem)

Pain, Pain, Pain…does it hurt?
No Cries, no Tears, but many later come.
Haunted am I, but free is He.
He, who I grew to love, though I guess I always did.

I saw it leave, a Life so dear.
It lingers and I see it. It hurts, but there is no Pain.

I am relieved, but I feel no Relief.
A “better place” construed to ease Minds, but the Heart knows it is where he is.

I’ll never let go, I will always love You.Not Jack, but Bear, did I lose

not much time for blogging these days

So I haven’t had much time for blogging these days, at least, not on my own page. It’s been all about Keyreads.com for me lately. I really enjoy it, but I’ve been really bad about writing my articles on time. I know my procrastination needs to stop and I need to study smarter for grad school and all that so I can focus on work. Because I’d ideally like to do more research to make my articles more relevant so that they’ll get more hits when I post them.

I’ve been procrastinating most by being on Pinterest, if you care to know. That and of course, Gmail and Facebook.

Another thing: I have two job interviews coming up. One with some San Francisco Start-up where I’d be a paid intern and one with Macy’s for a beauty advisor position. And I need to remember to apply at Crossroads on Irving St this week!

Working Girl (part 2)

Hey there friends, here’s a quick update for you:
So I’ve recently started working as an unpaid intern for Keyreads LLC. I’m supposed to write five 300+ word articles per week, which doesn’t seem too difficult. At least it shouldn’t be for a young woman who just wants to write and read and be allowed to look at fashion blogs and magazines, right?
Soooo wrong. I am a grad student; I’m supposed to read for like 20 hours per week, which leaves me brain-dead. I don’t know what else to write about other than what I’m reading. Not to even mention the pain I find myself in after too long reading or on the computer. Stupid weak eyes…
But really, the main problem is I truly don’t know how to choose what to write for them. My supervisor is not giving me much direction. I sometimes wish I were doing an internship where I needed to be in the office instead of doing it all online. But I’m giving it my best and trying to get my butt in gear because this is a great opportunity.
For now, I get to write about books, but hopefully they’ll let me start writing about fashion too. My supervisor said the company may by a website where I can write about fashion, which would be awesome because then I’d be able to write about fashion and books every week.
Anyway, here’s a link to my first article:

Working Girl (the positive denotation)

I’m getting jobs all of a sudden. Nothing big, but nothing small either.
Let me explain: I just graduated with my BA in LIt from UC Merced. I thought I’d be serving coffee by now, or at least everyone else thought I would be. I’ve always known I would make it, failure isn’t an option if I say it isn’t. And if you’ve read my other posts here on wordpress.com, you know I’ve gotten an experience only gig reviewing a couple of cool fantasy books. And that’s awesome! I’m really stoked about that.
Then, my beloved roommate recommended me as stand-in pet-sitter for a guy she usually pet-sits for. She’s going out of town at the same time he is, so of course, she couldn’t be there for him, and Raffy. So I’m going to go feed the sweet old pup and play a little fetch with him and basically hang out. Pretty cool, no?
Out of the blue I got my first job in publishing today; my friend from high school has an older brother. He just happens to need a proofreader for his book on guitar tab. She being the amazing friend that she is, suggested me. As a proofreader. For an e-book. Unfortunately I couldn’t do it because I was focusing all my efforts on summer school, but it’s a step in the right direction!

Handle Me

Well, I don’t like to be cold, ever. But at least when it’s cold I can bundle up, I can’t take my skin off when I’m hot. Haha…I’m good at telling bad jokes eh? I’m a bookworm who loves Lord of the Rings and A Song of Ice and Fire. I’m definitely a literature major… I may fantasize about being Mrs. Darcy and a world-class chef, but I’m ok at baking at least. I think I whip up a pretty good apple pie. I like to have friends over, but I rarely party at home… I don’t find it respectful to be loud and obnoxious when everyone else isn’t in a fun, exuberant mood.

I am pretty quiet in general. I can be shy, but I try to fake not being shy; my parents always quoted, “Fake it ’til you make it” to me when I was little. I don’t really know what quirks I have…though I’m sure I have them…I am not a perfectionist by any means, though I am a bit of a writing tutor. However, some might say grammar Nazi… I’m not really sure who I am at this point, I will be 22 next week, I love all kinds of music–especially classic rock–but I’m a country girl at heart, deep down I know I should be driving a Chevy truck, not a Honda accord, but the mpg is just sooooo much better for a broke college girl. I’m probably the quintessential confused American girl….I love all things European, and I wish I were already fluent in German and French….I like to turn the heater on when it gets below 60 inside; I’m always freezing for some reason….and I will get songs stuck in your head….

Anything else you’d like to know? I feel like I bared my soul to a complete stranger, but I’m sometimes a writer…I guess that’s what we do….

Also, I like to dance and eat all kinds of different food; my faves are Mexican, Indian, and Thai (pad Thai to be specific). I’ve been in Merced for four years, but I’m originally from Sacramento….I prefer things that have value…price doesn’t matter unless the product or experience doesn’t merit the expense….I would also prefer to shop locally, but sometimes there are things you can’t get locally…and I’m ok with that too.

Books Came In

I just got the first two books that I’m going to review for http://www.mythsoc.org. I’m really excited to read them and get working, but I’m stuck in summer school in order to finish my BA……………So I have a lot of mandatory reading to finish before I get to start Lord of Souls: An Elder Scrolls Novel by Greg Keyes and City of Ruin by Mark Charan Newton.
However, I’m truly excited and feeling the trust…Here’s hoping I can manage to get my reviews published!

I’m going to be a book reviewer!

So while working on my senior thesis for my bachelor’s degree, I discovered a website called Mythlore. This website is really cool, let me tell you. “Mythlore is a scholarly, peer-reviewed journal published by the Mythopoeic Society that focuses on the works of J.R.R. Tolkien, C.S. Lewis, Charles Williams, and the genres of myth and fantasy.”

Best part is, I am going to review a book or two for them. Maybe they will even get published if good enough, although I seriously doubt they pay people to review books. However, I get to keep whatever books I review and I get my name out there.

This opportunity may push my career forward and be a great confidence boost for starting…wait for it…GRAD SCHOOL!! I was accepted to San Francisco State University for their English Literature MA program. I’m quite excited.

I know this was short, but who really has the patience to read a big long blog from some silly 21-year-old? Am I right?

I'm going to be a book reviewer!

So while working on my senior thesis for my bachelor’s degree, I discovered a website called Mythlore. This website is really cool, let me tell you. “Mythlore is a scholarly, peer-reviewed journal published by the Mythopoeic Society that focuses on the works of J.R.R. Tolkien, C.S. Lewis, Charles Williams, and the genres of myth and fantasy.”

Best part is, I am going to review a book or two for them. Maybe they will even get published if good enough, although I seriously doubt they pay people to review books. However, I get to keep whatever books I review and I get my name out there.

This opportunity may push my career forward and be a great confidence boost for starting…wait for it…GRAD SCHOOL!! I was accepted to San Francisco State University for their English Literature MA program. I’m quite excited.

I know this was short, but who really has the patience to read a big long blog from some silly 21-year-old? Am I right?

my first blog post: a monumental occasion for moi

Lately I’ve been considering my career options. And I realized that I’m definitely not going to pursue singing, even though, don’t get me wrong, it would be awesome to show people my skills. I’m too impatient to learn music on my own; I like instant results. Which is why I’m now considering writing as a book reviewer: I love to read and write and I’m really good at both of them. Especially reading and then writing about novels. I discovered this propensity in high school, when I discovered I could write more than “once upon a time” on a paper (yes, in elementary school I turned in an in-class essay with just “once upon a time” written on it).

Once I carved my writers’ block into a better outlook on writing, I kind of loved it. Then I saw what I could do with my words, and I really loved it. It’s been a really long time since I turned in a paper in a literature course that didn’t get an A. however, I never considered trying to make a career out of it, but now I know that I have to do something, and soon. I graduate from UC Merced next year and then….who knows?

So that’s where I am right now, considering my options. Maybe “once upon a time” will be a sentence finished by “I got a job because someone awesome liked this blog.”

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